Am I?

Still nothing in an abyss
Of what never was
Was never
Is...
Am I?
Still there among the shards of what still is nothing
and therefore are not even what they are?
Am I to continue grasping onto these shattered pieces
and watch as my marred hands drop the already broken
and grasp onto what I think is real and whole
Only to find the illusion is shattered as well!
Am I to be left here in the dark of nothing, seeking what is not
and fearing what is!
Am I to continue, my hands shaking,
blood pouring onto a dull surface of Forever night,
only to discover I never was
Anything!
Nothing, I am still forever nothing?
Am I...
Can this world that never ends but has no beginning finally lay a path beyond the shadows
and allow me to grovel to-wards one reality
One real thing?
Can I make it if I am fake?