Life swirls downward,
As I become blind,
Of those who truly love me.
As my vision becomes blurry,
And I fade in and out of consciousness,
I cry.
Is this how I wanted it to end?
To leave all that is important,
Behind.
To leave all to suffer,
That my body will forever be grounded,
To the depths of hell.
Do I care?
Only so much.
For I could not take the pain,
God had put upon me.
Why he tortured me to death,
I do not know,
But for escaping this torture,
Should not be a sin,
But a gift.
I lived as long as I could,
And more.
I left all to be thankful that they have good memories of me.
Alex,
Has my love.
Nick,
Has my friendship,
CW,
Has my thankfulness.
Other Nick,
Has my enthusiasm.
Dakota,
Has my heart.
But is that enough for them?
Did I satisfy their every need?
I loose all sense of how I feel,
As I slip into a state,
Almost as if I am drunk.
But this time,
My hangover will never end.
And I will never,
Wake up…
