Because you left...

Daddy i thought you were the one that actually loved me
but now i cant see you because your flying above me
why'd you kill yourself didn't you know i loved you?
but now its too late to even tell you
i was only 10 at the time i didn't understand,
the pain its causing me now with everything else going on I'm too weak i can not stand
i don't have a care in the world and i don't know why
all this pain i try to survive
its hard to do
i wish i was up there with you
to me dying is no longer a fear its now a wish
my life is running by me .....swish (sound effect)
i don't know y i do what i do
I'm always getting kicked out of school
i chill with those gangs you hear about on the news
they asked me to join and it was them i choose
I'm here doing all the wrong things since you left
you were all i had, it was the memories i kept
i don't find pain or any grief for the people I've hurt
to me its what they deserve all they do is judge
they don't know the truth,
witch is you
i hate to say it but its you that makes me mad that gets me sad
so i go out and i get in trouble with the police, my family is sad
i don't care about my family anymore my friends are all i had because of you
i wish you could come back so all the pain i cause and my violence would stop
i miss you
you'll be in my heart
so until i feel you with me I'm going to keep tearing my life apart
i love what i do in a mean cruel way
i know what i do is extremely bad getting in trouble with the police is what i do and is what i have to say
so like i said I keep doing what i do
and hope that soon that, that feeling will be from you...

*** i know what your thinking its a bad poem but it describes me and i was just typing away so...yeah***