Not Again

I tried so hard to forget
but he reminds me of you
In every way,
even the features of his face
Thinking it was forever lost,
I knew I'd never love another
I try so hard to please him,
like I could never please you
Give him all that he wants,
I do anything he asks
Though he'll never love me
like I loved you
My heart still aches
from all that you've done
I never again cried for no one,
till he came along
The one heart you broke, my own,
in revenge I've broken tenfold
Now he's in my life,
a man I'll never have
Like a fool, I've fallen hard and fast
though I swore it wouldn't happen
Not again
Maybe he knows that,
and now I'm trapped
He commands me,
as a master to his slave
As I was to all the men
I seduced in the past
I know he'll never love me
for that I love him all the more
He'll only kiss his wife,
a gift he'll never give to me
I see a challenge I intend to win
but like a fool I know I stand to lose
But for only one kiss,
I give him all that I have, that I am
and again I feel the pain to me you gave
Anguish I swore would never sting me once more
With all the power of my persuasive seduction
He has yet to fall for me like all the others
Outside I cried rivers for you,
inside they now flow for him
I thought I was safe from ever loving again
Love and hate are one and the same
With both comes a pain that runs so deep
When he inflicts it on me,
it's so hard to breathe
Sometimes I wish I'd've never met you nor him
But then where would I be without love and pain?
Here it comes again. Not again