I Wonder...

I wonder
if you'll ever change
if you'll ever grow up

I wonder
if you like to hurt me
if you like to hurt mom

Sometimes i try my hardest
to be the person you ask
but then what you want changes
even if i complete your task

Sometime i feel i'm not good
enough for you to accept me
and others times i want to give up
on life all together

I wonder
if you try to make me feel like this
if you want to hurt us

I wonder
if you regret adopting me
if you wish i would leave

I wonder
when you will seek help
or when you will accept it

I wonder
what life will be like if i leave
if it could possibly get worse

(i'm sick of going day after day with the same stupid stuff happening over and over. I wish that i'd have to quit acting like it never happened because that continues to get harder and harder. I just wish that for once...just for ONCE i could be free!!!)