Here I Go Again

Here i go again,
letting myself say these things
you know i don't mean them
you know just how to manipulate me
but you don't know you're doing it
and you don't know why
i always feel this way
and I'm so afraid to die

but here i am
I'm sorry that you're disappointed
i can't help myself
somehow, this is what i wanted.
i know it's so bad for me
but i like feeling good
and i know you have no trust in me
I'm not sure that you should.

but this is me
and there you are
one million miles away
i beg and i plead
but i know you wont stay

so it's over now, I'm not surprised
a part of me already knew
but one day you will realize
they don't love you like i love you.