Watching you sleep

As I lay by your bed,
Watching you sleep,
My mind when crazy,
Eyes grow BIG,
Smile leaned CROOKED,
As the thoughts [passed through me,
all the things i see,
You lied,
You killed,
Drowning out everything I am,
Refusing to except me,
I bite my lip,
and stumble away,
He is not worth it,
Well at least not today...