Travelling.

Can't seem to think of the perfect apology,
Not even a word that would stick out,
The impact I'm looking for just isn't coming,
How will you ever understand where I've been,
If I can't get up the courage to tell you I was wrong?

Miles stretch out behind me,
I've been walking ever since that day,
You turned around and walked out on me,
On my own, out in what you'd call the real world,
Learning that I'm not in control,
Maybe I'm just as insane as I thought you were.

The road ahead seems devastatingly long,
I've been waiting for the release since that day,
I turned away with tears in my eyes, and asked you to leave,
Asking for something I thought would tear us apart,
But it only brought you to my mind again.

I guess I just don't know what to say,
It's been awhile since we last fought,
Even longer since you last smiled,
And forever since you loved me,
So honestly, what can a breaking heart argue?

All the doors closed for us that night,
We slammed them so sure of ourselves,
Doubt never crossed our minds,
Maybe you're still assured this is right,
But I've come so far and maybe even too far,
Because all I can see are the mistakes I've made,
The mistakes we've made together,
All I can see is the failed attempts at quick fixes,
And rushed tries at true reconciliation.

Please don't let me go just yet,
Stay just a while longer,
Listen to that distant pounding,
Temples are traded for hearts,
Just let me say the words you thought I had forgotten,
Let me prove to you I'm not running,
Please let me confront the ghost I've been chasing.