Thanks for the favor...

I'm sitting here in darkness,
I'm swimming in my sadness,
and I'm here still praying for what I wish...

I have pushed my fears down deep,
and most of them I don't care to keep,
Because none in which having any benefits to reap...

I'm hard headed and stubborn,
No matter what I do I can't seen to win,
and me being me, I don't ever give in...

Outgoing or not,
I seem to jump in without a thought,
Leaving me asking myself, why or what for...

Never understanding the meaning,
and not really sure why your truly leaving,
Why you must go, and never plan on returning...

The moment you go,
That single second, you take a piece of me with you,
Leaving me with a half and not a whole...

I'm sure it would have never worked,
But at least I was willing to try,
As for you, that wasn't a choice, so I lay here and cry...

These are my last words,
Goodbye's are not always forever,
But this one is, Goodbye and thanks for the favor...