Wouldnt wish this on anyone

Its sad... that she must deal with what I did.
I remember it like it was yesterday with 5 years now gone.
the emotions haven't dulled either.

I know how hard the sitting day after day is
The questions of how long do I have?
Will there be another day to live?
Am i going to be here when she leaves?
Is she suffering?

Then the moment passes whether you witness it or not.
It still rips out your heart... way worse than a break up.
You fall apart...
Unbearable moments...

Its the worst thing to watch... someone whom you love die a little more each moment you're there.