In this darkness I hold my head
Because every nerve is bursting
Every word you said
Until you felt better again
God forbid you mess up your life
I forgot that only I can do that
God forbid you don't do something right
Ooops my mistake again
I make the ONLY mistakes
How does it feel?
To be in control, to hold on tight
Cuz he's never letting go
Does it feel better, without me around?
Since I hit bottom
You never look down
Don't you feel proud?
I am lifeless, a body dead
Why should I breath when I have nothing left
I heard you loud and clear
You never even wanted me here
And now that I'm ruining your life again
Your'e doing all you can
To never let me forget
How does it feel?
To see these scars of red
Opening my skin
Cuz you took me down with you
Does it feel better when I'm on the ground?
Well know you know I've lost it
Oh, I have F U C K I N LOST IT
And I don't give a d a m n if you hurt me or not
Cuz anything feels better
When hurting is all you got
I could show you fear in a handful of dust
And I could show you REAL pain, if I shared the rust
I'm not sorry I came here
You won't admit it's your fault
I don't cause all the suffering
I suffer a lot
God forbid you make a mistake
And take the consequences
God forbid you grow up a little
And listen to what your mouth says
Since I hit bottom, I've felt content
Maybe I won't get up again
