I lost you

You said you were
ready for a relationship
so you asked
me to be your girlfriend
after I told you
that I could wait
and that I would wait
still you were really ready
it was perfect
for about three days
we talked about everything
you walked me
to all my classes
give me so many
hugs and kisses
you told me
you were happy
and that you loved me
which was great
because I have loved you
for over a year
then you started
pulling way from me
spining all your time with her
you left for the weekend
and came back monday
with gifts for her
and none for me
I didn't say anything
I didn't want to start a fight
the next thing I know
your giving me a note
saying you still
not ready for a relationship
and you don't think
we should be together
that maybe we can
try again later on
down the road
and all I could do is cry
I was in cless crying
writing you back
saying I understand
but it still hurts
after I wrote the note
I dried my tears
and I haven't felt anything since
no happiness or even sadness
just nothing
so I graded a razor
and cut myself
just to feel something anything
then you send a text massage
that wook me up
you said that
you never meant to hurt me
and you don't want to
lose me as a friend
but I can't just be your friend
I've been just a friend for a year
now I want to more
so I tell you about me cutting myself
and you act like you don't care
so I just go to bed
then I get another text in the morning
saying morning and how did I sleep
I say I slept good
but i really didn't sleep at all
when I get in the parking lot
of the school
I look for your truck
because its habbit now
I see I got to school before you
or you just ain't going to school today
I walk into the school
I look for you
knowing you ain't there
finally I see you
coming into the school
you head straight for her
I knew you would
but in some wierd way
I thought you would come to me
I wanted to cry
but I held it back
you won't talk to me now
so i found out
I lost you
but I still want you