My Mariah

I can't help but wonder how life would have been
If you had lived with me, would you still be seen?

If I had not left you alone in the cold,
would you have lived longer? Would you have grown old?

I'll tell you I'm sorry TEN million more times!!!
Cry oceans of teardrops, fill pages with rhymes.

I visit the memory of when I last saw your face
I'll carry that picture in my heart to that place.

I wander the darkness in search of your hand
I can't wait to see you till forever again.

When sleep finally hits me, I can't wait to see
If this will be the night when you come visit me

In my dream you're happy, you're laughing you sing.
In true life you were hurting, you were sad, though you hid...

I play the scenes in my mind time after time.
If I could take your place, give you life; I'd give mine.

Reality sets in and I realize it can't happen;
I can dream then believe and at last be saddened

I will wait till death comes to take me,
and there you will wait,

To take my hand and walk with me through
heaven's gate.

Until then I'll hold you in memory alone,
I will miss what was taken from us till I'm gone...