Being me.......

It's so hard to be the way i am cause in front of them I'm strong and when I'm by myself I cry till I fall asleep. I smile to my friends, but deep inside I'm crying for help. I act like if my life is perfect when all I want to do is die. If there was a way to go back I wouldn't even think twice I would change all thats wrong,but the reality is that I can't. Being me is not that easy if there was a day that I'm myself it is when I hold the knife right next to my hand ans seeing the blood, that is the real me........