Empty Window

I stare out my window at a beautiful day.
Yet this dark cloud surrounds me and gets in my way.
Where is the warmth I should feel on my face?
Its seems to me, it must be misplaced
I stare out my window cold and missing you,
Starring at this sky that is not the right blue.

How did this happen?
How did we end up this way?
Why do I feel so empty today?
And then I remember, on this of all days,
Those painful words that got in the way.
Our time is not right; it just has to be,
Even though I still love you, its best that I leave,
You can go on without me, its better that way
This pain that you feel now, in time shall go away.

I stare out my window
Remembering our love.
My heart starts to whisper, it's a sign from above
I must erase this memory, get us out of my head
I have to do it soon for I will shortly be dead.
.
I stare out my window
I feel my heart break
I wonder was our love just a huge mistake
In my heart I know better
But now you see, this cloud that surrounds me I know will always be.

Those words were so right, our time shall not be
I know this is true my answers plain I can see
As I stare out my window, now the suns hitting me
My eyes start to close, a tiny tear escapes free,
A memory of us and time we once shared ,
A risk we both took, a time that we dared

The time for us I know will never be
No, my love I don't blame you nor was it me,
Things sometime happen, we just need to grieve
But how can I let go and start to be me
My only hope is that death will be my reprieve