Suicide goodbye

I need you to be strong,
Cause I know what I'm doing is wrong
And I am truly sorry I have to leave
So be there for each other when you grieve.

I never mean to ruin your lives,
When I take these 2 sharp knives
But I really do want to die
But I'm not meaning to make you cry.

But they are screaming
And I'm not dreaming
I am awake, it is real
And its my life they will steal.

Because if i live-
I have nothing to give
Because this horrible pain-
Hits as hard as icy rain.

This is my suicide goodbye-
Don't be too sad when I die,
I will be happy and have no more pain,
In this life there is nothing more for me to gain.

I am sorry for hurting you
But I am just feeling totally blue
I'm not strong enough to be able to stay here
But one day in heaven you will find me there somewhere.

(written 2007)