My world

My hands are trembling with fear,
I'm so petrified of tomorrow
And what it might bring-
For nothing is what it is anymore
And I am not who I am.

My eyes are red and raw from crying,
I just feel so exhausted and miserable
Like I have nothing left to offer
And I know nobody could understand that-
So I don't say a word.

My head is throbbing, I can’t think straight-
There are ghosts haunting me
Screaming horrible things
While pointing and laughing
And they won't leave me alone.

My heart feels empty-
I don't belong anywhere-
I don't enjoy anything anymore-
There's nothing to look forward to-
There's no hope.

My world has fallen apart-
It collapsed at my feet,
There's nothing left
So It's time to leave, get out of here
And end it all right now.

(written 2007)