Please forgive me

The distance force me away from you
And what my heart is bounded to say
Its hard to do and knowing every way
Its hard to do, to break you every day

My heart is bleeding when I see you sad
My stomach is making me sick,
Its a burden and sometimes I throw it away
But only to return to it the very next day

The pain in my heart
That I cant describe
Im shaking and crying from the inside
But You have to know
I tried so hard, and ripped in my soul
I tried so long, with a heart I cant control

So please dont think that I dont care
Youre far away, yes Im aware
That this time the cut is too deep
This time well end up fight or weep

Im begging you not to blame me
Cause my heart is simply too weak
I cant force my heart to love you
Like I cant force it to speak

You try to drag me out of the dark
To face myself and watch me in the light
But yet Im just still too scared
My home is still in the dead of the night

Maybe its best that I stay away
The sorrow that surrounds you is me
Im writing this with tears in my eyes
As the beat of my heart, slowly dies