Sometimes i feel like I'm different inside
Ive felt pain too deep it hurts to hide
My friends they are kids
Its simple and free
I remember
When it used to be me
But they cant relate
Too the pain that i feel
Its so deep and hurtful
Its simply unreal
I don't expect them to understand
But i needed someone to hold my hand
And they weren't there
I was left alone
They were to scared to text let alone phone
So id sit in my room and cry and cry
Wishing inside that god would just let me die
Id walk through the corridors and feel there stares
Knowing that deep down the did care
They just didn't know what they could say
It hurts more day by day
Ive never been honest on just how i felt
When he died
And the pain that i dealt
I cant admit because its so deep
It hurts me so bad
I find it hard to sleep
But worst of all
I feel so alone
I wish my friends would pick up the phone
And ask me those questions i long to express
The feelings of confusion sadness and regret
The feelings Ive had to try and compress
I need you to be here right by my side
How does it feel when your boyfriend dies?
I need you to ask
i need to confess
because i feel isolated in this unhappiness
Please just be there like you used to be
Please i want help
I need you to see
