The Letter she lefted in her journal for him

Sometimes i wonder why this happened
but then again i don't wonder i think
it was for a reason so many
things happen and i wasn't
expecting this one from you
well i guess i have to learn who
is going to hurt me and i have to
learn how to heal the pain
its not easy trying to go on
with my life and forgetting about
you its really hard and you have
no idea whats its like to be in my shoes
you used to be sweetest boy ever sad thing
about it is that i talked about you everyday
I cant believe the way we ended
it's not fair. I don't know why I think its
not but I think that just part of life
I have to deal with all the pain you
put me through.. I don't understand
why but also want to know why you did what
you did. Sometimes I can't forgive myself but
I'm forgiving you because I think that everyone
deserves to be forgiven but I'm not forgiving myself
for meeting you for the times when people told me about
your history I knew it had to be true I guess I wasn't good
enough for you I guess my classy clean ways scared you
away but I'm not like the other girls I'm different you may not
see it but I have something for you someday you are gonna
wish I was with you but you'll realize that I was the one but you
were too blind to see that I was in front and the last one standing
you were just into who and whatever you can get. When people
talk about u sometimes It makes me wonder I always wonder what your doing...remember that day when I wrote to you asking you if
you really meant to hurt me and you never responded sometimes I feel you don't want to deal with me but then again I remember you telling
me If ever I needed anything to stay in touch with you but where were you
when I needed to talk or anything I was there for you I guess It wasn't enough
you better remember that I was the one who helped you get to where you are
right now and still till this day you never said thank you but I know that you were
not thinking I guess you didn't know I secretly helped you just didn't realized I was
helping you I think without me helping you out you wouldn't make it and it would
have broken my heart but I'm the type of person to put other first before
one's self it's just how I see it I just hope someday I could see you again because I we need to get things straighten out.......

always know I Love u

PS: remember that text u send me it said I WONT FORGET U my question to you is DID YOU?

X0X0

Tani

"Realize whats important in your life
what you CAN live with,
but more importantly, what you
CANT live without"