After Perfect

How can this be
why does this happen
always seem to happen to me
my life goes in circles
one loop then the next
always ending back where i started
i'm stupid and scared
and live life with so many regrets
i have had so many thing
that were so perfect its true
but i gave them up
just like i did you
i don't know why i did it
i don't know why i cant seem to see
please don't think it is you
because it is completely me
whenever things are amazing
i get scared and then i flee
because i don't know
what after perfect will be
i'm scared of the unknown
and yet some mystery i crave
like the one you felt for me
but i gave you up
and now my heart will never be safe