Crips, Bloods, Gangs, Drugs,
Unfortunate demise of those I love.
Tym is ticking and ur time has come
The love we shared can't compare
to the hate of the colors yall wear
every tear counts for sum10
sum10 bigger then they'll eva see
its counts 4 how important you are to me.
Im talking to all my fallen soldiers
We used to joke about when we wud get older.
No one cud ever guess the pain I feel
When I wake up 2 hear so and so has been killed
They say you live by the gun you die by da gun
You bang your hood to the fullest and think that�s smart.
I don't blame ya that's all you known from the start.
I mean we used to kicc it on the front porch,
And talk about the future and how yall wasn't gone gangbang no more
Err1 had dreams I mean we was all posed to grow old and grey together
But God had other plans.
At first I cried because I had lost my best friend.
Man I never had a friend in ne1 else like him
Then one by one my hope for the future got dim,
I have lost way to many friends and family members to this shit.
We get older we get smarter but the thought of banging must excite us a lil bit.
I mean I look at my friends that are left and I see them going down the same path.
I prayed to the Lord to lift me from such negativity and he did
I prayed for him to watch over my sister as she goes thru her lil faze of being in a clicc.
Because not everyone is luccy like me
I grew up got smart and got far away from the hood
Yet my family still resides there and think its all gud
Bullets flying niggas dying all for what
Man it sounds harsh but I don't give a fucc
This shit is ridiculous.
I lost another friend last week
I got a call from my momma and all I could do is weep
Jus standing there minding his business didn't gang or no10
He was jus n the wrong place at the wrong tym while some fools was on a misson
I have gave up on trying to understand the epidemic that has changed my life so much.
I know this shit made me who I am to day but its felt lyk a punch n my gut
I say to myself I seen more by the age of ten then a child shud see.
I can tell ya sum things u wudnt even believe
Lyk for instances
Naw naw no snitchin
I done over came a lot and dats only because of GOD's will
This brings tears to my eyes when I think of this month of May.
Yeah I�ll turn 20 years old on the 26th
But that marks the death of my favorite cousin I love him to the fullest but hate that I�m lost without him
Seems like yesterday he wud role up on me when I'd be walking to the store and say
I got my eye on you lil cuzzin
I would quickly reply what you doin in the south
We wud laff then right bacc to nutty he'd go. I mean the only thing I can look forward to is once a year going bacc to LA and spending an hour at his grave sight
One heck of a birthday right.
But I wouldn't have it ne other way since sadly he's not here with me 2day..
James Darwin Williams your spirit lives on. R.I.P to all my love ones!!!!!
