Feelings Of Today And Yesteryear

All of my life
I've been smiling to
Hide my tears
All the stuff bottled
Up over the years
I used to want God
Take me away from all
Of the hurt to at-least
Alter my mood
Some people Fake
The scars to try
And be cool
but growing up
I didn't have anything at all
I use to sit and cry
All night long
Then I realized that
I need to hold onto
The moments that
Have life's meaning
Before I have awaken
I was only painfully dreaming
the scars still remind me
Of Yesteryear
And all tears and fears
But I no longer
Think that I
Have nothing to
Live my life for
Because I have my
Baby boy Lucius
The joy of my life
I just hope
He doesn't go through
The trouble and strife
Insecurities are my
Biggest problem
Will I be a good dad
To the son I have
Or will my world
Soon be done
But I mustn't think
About it my heart
That used to be
Gray and cold
Is now full of
Warmth and glow
I would go to hell
And back to prove
My love for my
Baby and my wife
I finally feel
The weight
Is Gone now
I can continue
Down the righteous
Path of Light and Life