Disappointment

I look at you in disgust.
You look at me like I'm an idiot.
But I'm not the one who gets high whenever possible
I hate how I have to come home to such a disappointment.
All I hear from you is yelling, crying,and "go get my beer.
I hate when I still care about you.
I hate when I come home and I wanna see you.
When I leave no goodbye
When I come home no hello or I missed you.
I have to deal with your crap everyday.
I don't want to yell, fight , or ignore you.
It hurts me to hate you.
You look as you do nothing wrong, like everything is OK.
It's Not! It's never OK when I'm with you.
I can't smile when your here, not even laugh.
When I'm with you it's like getting ran over by a truck over and over again, but I never die.
I wanna be with you.
But I have to leave.
I can't watch you ruin me.
Waiting for you is like waiting for a lifetime.
If I stay I'll be just like you.
drunk, useless.
Dealing with you is more than any child should handle.