Still wishing you where here

I haven't slept for three days
my eyes are black
in every way
my hands are cold
they are shaking
i wish you where here to warm them
as awake as i am
i'm still waking

your picture was on my desk
until yesterday
i threw your letters away
except the one you called me pesk
it has a value you will never learn
you're the first time i was burned

i slept three hours last night
almost made four, you wouldn't let me
i remember the first "i love you"
it felt right
but i was out of mind-out of sight

your picture was on my desk
until yesterday
i threw you letters away
except the one you called me Lest
it has a value you will never learn
you're the first time i was burned

hey Lil
don't call me again
you've hurt me over and over
i tried to be a friend
but in the end
i don't want a reason
to place slits on my wrists

your spot on my desk
it's been replaced
the box of your old letters
are just memories of a special place
and the values i've learned
i have found someone to heal my burns