Breaking the Cycle

There goes another disappointment
he let me down once again
you'd think by now I'd be used to it
instead it hurts more each time
Instead of fighting back against the pain
instead of trying to escape
I sit back and wait
for the pain to come get me
You'd think I'd learn by now
after all this time
But I let the pain come each time
because he has so much of me
enough to break my heart
enough to break all of me
After all he'd done
after all these years
I still grow to love him
more and more each time
though I know I shouldn't
Because I'm setting myself up each time
for the pain, the disappointment
But still I wait
and I hope
for this time to be different
for things to change
I hope to not get hurt again
but the empty hopes never pull me through
I stay in this place
this never ending cycle of pain
disappointment and broken promises