Bleeding on the inside

by ashley joy   May 4, 2008


My emotions run a muck
No matter what I do
No matter how hard I try
Unwillingly tears cloud my vision and pour out my bleeding eyes
Trying so hard not to let the tears escape my eyes
Clinching them shut as tight as I can
The tears keep pouring down my face
I can not hold anything inside of me
Every event in my life has led to the broken state I'm in
Pretending the best I can and faking my happiness to comfort those I loved
It doesn't work anymore and I'm falling apart
Snapping at the seems
Weak and empty without smiles
Bleeding out every emotion I've ever had while trying to hold it in
It's slipping through my fingers as I'm slipping out of my mind
Screaming when no one is there
Staining my pillow with tears at night when my nightmares crash down on me
Plunging into unhappy thoughts that pull me down into an apathetic pool
It hurts not to feel
It hurts when I do feel
The pain get worse everyday and never seems to get any better
This melodramatic state allows me to stay fake
Fists of rage bleed from punching walls and breaking glass
Another tear, another cut
Hoping I'll wake up or just forget
Taking one last breath as I plunge off this hurt and into my life

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  • 16 years ago

    by emovampire

    I really love this one,.. and i LOVE the imagry VERY awesome...: )

  • 16 years ago

    by HvN

    This poem is so sad... I can really relate.. soemtimes all you can do is cry... no matter how much you want to hold back.

    great job!

    5/5

  • 16 years ago

    by Baby Rainbow

    Thats really good keep it up ok xx

  • 16 years ago

    by Ingrid

    So much sadness portrayed by such a young girl. It breaks my heart to think there are so many young people feeling unhappy and alone.
    You made a beautiful poem about this...
    I wish you luck and hope you will find happiness soon.

    Take care,

    5/5 Ingrid