Its not a poem its a quote that was too long

Sometimes i think about it.
You know, life and death. and i think to myself is there really a god and a devil. is there really Heaven and H***. or is god just an imaginary friend for everyone or an excuse y you didnt get something you wanted.... "ohh god has a plan for everyone, and its not my turn to get wat i want". But i think if you want something and you need something, you dont let god decide for you and give it to you, you should f.u.c.k.i.n.g chase the thing you want till you get it. Dont let something or someone you dont even know exists rule your life and limit you of your potential.
i was looking at my friend Liz's myspace who past away, RIP, and i thought to myself as i read some of the comments from other ppl. Is she really up in heaven, and able to read these things ppl say but not respond. Can she really be looking over us from Heaven or up from h*** and not send us a sign at all. Is it really possible that when someone passes away that there soul, wat we havent ever seen gone up and joined god to live on in another life, but in this other life cant comfort the ones who missed her. And y for someone who was so young and wat looked like to become a great life be taken away right before it all started
Its just some thoughts i have sometimes.