The growing pain

I wake up to a sunny morning
Birds singing and roosters crowing
As if life was saying that it is all gonna be ok
But you can't fool me today

I get out of bed covered in sweat
Nightmares that didn't seem to have an end
I take a bath then look in the mirror
But all i see are cuts all over me

Everyone sees me as a freak
A looser being beaten 4 times a week
But no one can feel my pain
So powerful i feel like i am going insane

The pain keeps growing stronger
I need someone to help me
A person to listen , a shoulder to cry on
But i am surrounded by selfishness
By people who only care about themselves

Anyways who cares, the day is over
And now it's time to sleep
But with everything on my mind i can't
And so it is pills and alcohol that i seek

Now take me back to another nightmare
Show me problems of which i am not aware