Drenched

I step into the water of faith unable to last
i hold myself back based on a non-fulfilling past
the water nearly drowns me, scarce becomes this air
i'm drenched in guilt this mind will no longer bare
my heart beat increases with each step deep down
as pressure pierces me within and i begin to slowly drown
pacing around, no lifejacket for miles
alone and gasping for one last breaking smile
but i am pulled downward by the fault of my own
this water thick, embracing the last of what i'm shown
not noticing the tears, for this water covers me wholly
crying softly as life takes me over slowly
oh i can barely hold straight the body i carry
wishing this feeling would only be what i bury
who knew such a life would end in such shame
deserving such a conscience, for i am to blame
try pulling me further, i'm as low as one can conceive
i can barely breathe, no one can lift me, please believe
this is the last i can handle of myself in water so deep
although terrifying, this water will finally help me sleep
i will step into this hole, a decision made from what i've begun
i can finally rest, take life apart, as cries drown me, i'm undone