Estranged

Much distance now between us
And not just in the miles.
You didn't tell, I didn't tell
The tears behind the smiles.

Remembering our early years
A babe in arms, a child,
So precious to me Alison
But now I am beguiled.

Did I ever know you?
Did we ever meet?
We hid ourselves behind our smiles,
Therein lies our defeat.

I dare not try to visit you,
I dare not try to phone,
You've turned your back upon me,
And here I stand ......alone.

You and your dear children
Are lost to me I fear,
Your heart is closed, your mind is shut,
Your silence loud and clear.

And yet you will not cut the cord,
Your silence mostly screams
Your silent thoughts, no spoken word
Haunt me in my dreams.

The cards may come, the cards may go
But ne'er the twain shall meet,
I cannot reach you, never could
It's much too great a feat.

Silence! Silence! Silence!
Not golden anymore
But black and dark and hopeless,
Leaving me heartsore.

Perhaps your heart was broken,
Not once but many times,
Perhaps you put the blame on me,
One of my many crimes.

When you turned away from me,
You disappeared to where?
Did you think I wouldn't mind,
I really wouldn't care?

Well if you did you're very wrong
I cared more than you know,
I worried and I searched for you,
Your silence was a blow.

I wish that I could know you,
I wish that you would write,
I wish for peace between us
And a future that is bright.

It may be still to no avail
But see, my hand is open
Will you slap it silently
Or offer me a token?