When will it stop

When will it stop
when will it end
i can no longer live life
and on love i depend,
I want so bad to love
and have love come back to me
but its hard to let my gaurd down when
i keep getting hurt by trusting,
so i'd thaught i fell in love
with the girl of my dreams
but not everything turns out
the way that they seem,
i opened up to her and
quickly gave her my heart
not knowing it'd be something
i shouldn't have done from the start,
one day she went to my school
she picked me up and took me home
we sat in her car forever
finally words came out...but slow,
she looked so unpredictable
"i need some time to think" she said
i didn't quite understand her
the last words i heard "i think we should just be friends,
i sat their oh so quiet
not knowing what to say
she asked me for an answer
all i could do was think of our happy days,
i thaught i made her happy
as tears rolled down my cheeks
then she made me look at her
and it hurt to even speak,
i'd never shown so much emotion
to the point where i would cry
i told her i was stingy
and if i couldn't be with her this was goodbye,
she said "thats how you feel"
i slowly shook my head
not saying a word but still thinking
and finally i said yes,
i didn't want it to end like this
for me to hurt and fall
but sometimes we don't always get what we want
so were left with nothing at all,
but i guess this stuff has to happen
so better things can come along
i just thaught that she'd be different
obviously i was wrong...