Imperfect Daughter

Open up the book you beat me with again.
Read it off one sentence at a time.
Compare me to every word you spoke.
I know Im not perfect,
But knowing is not enough for you.

Rub it in like a stain.
Bleach my scars so they never go away,
I know I don't think things through.
It might be harsh, everything I try,
It's done for you.

I want you to be proud of me.
Proud of what I've done and could be.
Like when I was little,
You would praise me for hitting a homerun.

For some reason,
We can't get back to that way of living.
The things I do you hold up and use against me.
One day I will see al the things,
You tryed to force into me.

Life was so simple when the world was right.
Sometimes I wish I could go back and change time.
So all this would be nothing in reality.
More like a memory lost in a dream.

Hurting you was the last thing on my mind.
My mom a power I can not die.
Sorry I'm not perfect,
This is just who I am.

The girl you raised and held on tight,
Right now I'm so confused.
I just can't show you.
To be strong like you is what I strive for.
I'll just never let you see the tears I cry,
For reasons I won't deny.

At night I wish I could only fall asleep.
Remember how you taught me to chase my dreams.
That I could do anything,
If I put my mind to it.
But My mind is tired
And so am I.