No past no future

I have so much
built up anger
eating away
at my insides

built up anger
from a useless past
built up hatred
from those in it

youve taken my life away
and ruined all its joy
ive known you my entire life
ever since i was a little boy

but now things have changed
you have changed...
i have changed...
nothing is as it seems

i cant take another argument
strike or blow
i cant take another moment
with you here

i cant think of a future
present, or past
where everything is normal
how it used to be

ive tried so many times
to just forget
ive tried so many times
just to forgive

but you used my trust
as a key to get in
you used my emotions
as one of your toys

as much as i try
to look back to the past
i cant bring myself to every forgive
i cant think of you the same

you were supposed to be my role model
the person i looked up to most
you were supposed to be there
when i needed you most

even though we are considered family
i think of you nothing more
than just a room mate
a person living in the same house

we can never have what we did
we can never think the same thoughts
we can never share the same feelings
we can never go back to the past.