I need you (507)

Every day
When I think of you,
I almost cry,
I almost cry because
I know,
I know how you feel and that,
That we will never be,
It's just like,
Like my world and my dreams
Have crashed down,
Down around my feet,,

And I wish,
I wish I didn't have a heart
That I could love you with,
Love you with forever,,

And every time,
Every time I look at you,
I want to fall to the ground,
I want to sob and to cry
And to scream and to shout
Because I know,
I know that you don't,
That you don't want me,
You want her
And it breaks me apart
And
Tears me up
To know this,,

And every time I speak to you
I wonder,
I wonder "will this be the last time?"
Because love is so
Unpredictable that,
That you would probably be gone,
You would be gone by tomorrow morning
And I would have to cry,
I would cry myself to sleep
For the rest of my life because
I know that I love you
And I always will,,

And even though my heart,
Although it is shattered to a million and one pieces,
I will always love you
With all those pieces
But you don't seem to realize,
You seem to be content
You seem to be comfortable with
Breaking my heart,
You seem fine with making me cry
Every day and every night,,

Are you happy?
Because it seems that you are
It seems that you are enjoying life
Even though I'm not,
Even though thoughts,
Thoughts of suicide flashed through my mind,,

You don't care, do you?
Are you so selfish that,
That you won't even talk to me
Let alone look at me
When I want you to,
When I need you to,
When I need you to tell me that,
That I should keep looking
Because there are plenty of fish in the sea
And that you're not the one,,

I don't have the bait
To hook you on,
I don't have the drugs
To make you high,
I don't have the candy
To make your mouth water
And i don't have the stuff
For which you would die,,

I don't have anything at all
That discerns me from just a human being,
No special qualities
Because I am just me
I don't have a brilliant talent
Or rare good looks
I don't have a hot body,
Because my sister took it all
For herself.

So I guess that,
I guess that I'll just keep crying,
I'll keep quitting,
I'll keep dying,
And I'll keep trying to fit in
With the qualities you look for in a girl
But I know I'll never get there
Because you're the type of guy
Who every chick wants,
You're the type of guy everyone needs
But no one needs you as much
As I do,,

I need you to be there
To put a smile upon my face
To hold me when I'm sad
To carry me when I'm down
I need you to be my guardian angel
Because only you can save me from death,,

I need you to be my one
To help me breathe, to help me sleep
To help me cry, to help me try
To help me hate and to help me love
And only you can do all this
Because I chose YOU,,

But I don't think you realize
How much I truly want you
No - how much I truly need you,
How much I truly love you,,

I think you think it's all some joke
When you're the only guy
For whom I have ever truly loved
And when you're away, then I will cry,
If you needed help, I swear I'd try
If you get hurt then I'd die.

If I told you that I love you
Right to your face
Would you love me
Too?

If I gave my heart to you
Would you take it, that be that,
Or would you throw it away
Or tear it in two?

I've liked plenty of guys before
And it all ended bad,
So I've set up my choice
That I'd only ever choose someone
Who was you,
That I'd only ever love you
And no one else
And I always have loved you,,

I'd always promise to be true
Because I NEED you
I need you to love me
I need you to hold me
I need you to hug me
I need you to comfort me
I need you to be there
I need you to kiss me
I need you, I just need you,,

To make me feel happy and sad
To make me frown, to make me mad
To make smile,
To make life worthwhile,
To make me feel LOVED and NEEDED
Though it's I who needs you,
Though it's I who will end up broken as before
Though it's I who will be dying,
Though I tried
I'd be crying,
Because I really need you,
Right now.

~For Daimon: I need you~

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