I learned at a young age not to let people get to me. Not to get too attached so I wouldn't get hurt.
Always had a wall up that no one could climb. And if someone could, they scaled my wall and they were here to stay. I only have a few people in my life that have gotten over my wall. And they the only ones who have heard the song of my heart, and when I get lost and confused, they are the only ones who can sing it back to me. But for the others who have only gotten half way up my wall and fell back down. Or who have gotten to me in the start of my construction. They are the people who I learned from. The people that made me start building. They are the ones who's words replay through my mind some days. Their haunting laughter and evil smiles stay with me to this day.
But for once I made an exception. For one person I thought was true. The one I thought cared and liked me. So I let you tear down pieces of my wall until you made it into my heart, where you lived and filled me with joy. I was always smiling and laughing. I was happy, I wasn't hurting, for once everything seemed perfect. I wanted that feeling to last forever. Sadly forever came and left. I guess I wasn't as strong as I thought I was, I fell for you and let you in. Only for you to break me like the others did before. You fooled me with your sweet words that turned out to be lies. You fooled me with you love that I thought was as true as could be. You weaseled your way in for the kill, and got me point blank. I thought I was smarter then that. I guess I didn't learn the full lesson, I left class when I thought I was ready. Now I am left with a hole in my wall and a hole in my heart. Right where you dug your way out. You shattered my heart and left me to clean up the pieces. You left your mark in me. That small little hole, too small to fix, and too big to cover up. A hole that only holds the memory of you.
So now, as I begin to start my rebuilding. I shed a tear for every brick you tore down. A tear for every time you made me smile. A tear for even thinking you cared. But with each brick I lay, and as my wall gets higher. I know I have learned from my foolish mistakes. Never will I let someone through, no exceptions. The only ones who need and deserve my love, are the ones who are brave and strong enough to scale the wall around my heart.
