Why

Why years later do I still feel the pain you left inside of me?
Why do I still cry at night from the loss of dignity?
How could you reap the innocence from a child still so young?
How can you still sleep at night after knowing what you've done?
I still fear the world around me full of lying men
I still feel the pain inside the heart that doesn't mend
I can't believe what happened, to know what I have lost
To know that just by trusting you, had such a painful cost
I will always know what you did and on to those what you will do
I will always fear the pain you left, and for that I do hate you.

I was raped a few years ago and I cant seem to let it go. Please tell me what you think