No one hears me,
I'm screaming, crying, pleading, falling.
Down and down and down.
Into a pool of darkness,
Not a single crack of light.
The night air around me,
truthful,
Silent.
With nowhere to go.
Someday soon,
It will all come out,
The secrets,
The tears,
The screams,
The cries,
With no one to hear.
Alone.
Why is it that everyone,
Looks at the world in color,
While I can only see black and white?
Can you tell me,
Why I am stuck in the middle,
Between hate and love,
While the one who I love,
And the one who I hate,
Doesn't even know?
Is there a reason,
Why I must wear a mask,
That hides who I really am?
Does no one know,
Why the mask that I wear,
Breaks, when I need it,
To stay together most?
If I am safe and healthy,
Is there someone who can tell me,
Why I feel so much pain?
Why is it that everyone,
Looks at the world in color,
While I can only see black and white?
Is it better if I just hide?
Guilt and confusion overwhelm me,
I don'tt want to deal with it.
Why why why me?
Why is it ,
That God chose to dump this load upon me?
I just want for there to be,
And end to this pain.
I'm sick of being the one,
Who does everything wrong.
I used to be so sweet and innocent,
But we all know that life changes everyone.
I don'tt understand,
How it is, that people,
Just don't know,
How to deal with the real me.
I never seem to get the one thing
That I truly want.
Cause when I actually come close,
It is snatched back from me.
And then my mind explodes,
My thoughts become a swirling vortex,
I am pulled in,
And I can not breathe.
