Suicide -This Is How I Feel.

While the other children play,
This is where I must stay.

Alone and silent,my eyes filled with tears.
But I can't say a word,no one can see my fears.

How I wish everyday weren't this way.
And this dread would just go away.

No matter what I do, it seems to fail.
The sun could be up in shine but to me it is hail.

How can my heart hold so much?
See now, I am losing touch...

If only people could see I'm bleeding...
And the lack of love I'm needing.....

They don't know what I feel.
That this is pain is so real.

I could say this again & again.
Until something stopped the pain.

I always want it to go away.
But the voices confuse me with what they say.

A word always comes to mind.
That would help my feelings blind.

Its used so freely, which isn't right.
People who pretend they have to fight my fight.

But they are horrible liars & do not feel.
They don't scream "let my wounds heal!"

A word that could be the answer to my pain...
So I don't have to go insane....

I just can't help that I feel this way....
Please I'm not trying to frighten you with what I say.

Suicide.