Everyday as i walk to school i fear of dying, eventhough my people are always watching my back it dosent mean i dont fear when i hear a gun shot. I'm hated by most but it dosent matter. I always say bloods aint got shit on this but i know there after me and my hood. I stand behind walls making sure no 1 sees me i carry a gun with me all the time fearing sum 1 will mess up and shot. My father is behind bars and even he fears me. he, being considered a dangerous thug himself, known never to fear anyone, has tolled me he fears me. He says he is not proud of me and that I need to change. Living in such a Dangerous hood was so hard and they expect me to be weak. people ask if i LuV sum 1, i always say no, the only person i truly luved was taken away from me, yes death has taken the only thing i lived for. Life has never given me ups and always makes my life so hard but then who said life was eazy. Life is like a battlefield and always the weak ones die first in my hood im a superstar, the strongest one taking over, but deeply inside i wish i could take back the pain I've caused so many but i will never say sorry, they didnt care when they took my sisters life, but i know just how bad it feels. I always say losing her was like losing my herat, needed to live. Theres a lot of haters that dont want me to make it but sure enough they know who and i know they will never forget me. Going through struggles in this pavement falling from a gun shot but in never died im still around but my heart is dying to give up but my hood, my family needs me. yes you may say im a girl but i know yuve never seen a stronger one than me. to all the people that hate this strong girl, if you ever get your wish and i die i want to be facedown in my casket so all the haters kan kis my black ass. and for my hood just be HAPPY IM RID OF DIS FUKED UP LIFE. @#$#^&)(*&^#********
