Hold Me Back

I'm struggling to find
A reason to live
I'm longing for my blade
Release you forbid

Without you by my side
Without your sweet touch
I'm fighting with myself
This pain is too much

You've taken over me
I've lost who I am
These memories that hurt
Killed the life I ran

Night after night I cry
Myself into sleep
Thoughts so self consuming
You haunt every dream

I long to let it out
Free myself of pain
It's like I'm stuck on you
Deserving all your blame

I'm struggling to find
A reason to live
Without you here with me
I fear I'll give in

The blade I've known too well
Lies buried in trash
Holding my memories
Dark scars of my past

A want I'm starving for
My deserved release
It you that stops me
I'm tied to your leash