I used to scream but no one would hear
Hopeless, longing for it to end,
For this depression to leave my body.
I look back so far in this life
And ask how it got so bad.
How at one point I wanted to end it
And not care how many people I would hurt.
All I wanted to feel is the pain gone.
For someone to reach out enough
To get over my anger and my guard,
Past a person who was not me
And tell me it is okay,
To make everything better.
Everynight wipe away my tears
Because I knew when I would come home
They would fall from my eyes again.
But I had to fall
I had to be betrayed and left exposed
To be left weak.
I look back
I would not change it.
I would not be this person
If I did not feel that pain.
Life will always be full of suffering
Only to bring joy.
So look forward to the future
But always learn from your past.
5/9/08
