You're here,
and then you're not.
And I swear it's all the same.
Just because you're in the room,
doesn't mean I can feel you near.
So I'll ignore you for today
and you'll think I'm indifferent now,
because of it -
because I'll talk to everyone else but you.
But it's not that I don't care love,
it's that I care far too much.
I just want you out of my head,
I just need you out of my head,
so I can lie down and close my eyes freely.
Sometimes I'm so afraid that you don't know me at all.
So when you come around,
I'll put my hand to my lips to cover my mouth,
and bite down hard until you're gone.
So the words won't slip out and fall in your lap-
So I don't have to say what I really mean.
If you think I'm being cold,
I'll think you're being insensitive.
But neither of us will have the courage to say it out loud,
so we'll leave it rest unsaid.
I'm tired of the silence,
It's getting so loud.
But conversations never get us anywhere anyway.
A hundred thousand words could not explain where we stand.
I'd tell you I love you
but,
you're as far away as it ever gets.
And I'm afraid these words will never reach you there.
And even if you were beside me, I'd still feel alone.
