Look at me and not my picture

People think they can get the best of me

but I'm not going to be someone i don't wanna be

so why do they look at my picture when I'm smiling and glad

but really I'm always sad

they say i have a nice smile but the hint they don't take

hasn't anybody realized that my smiles are fake?

is it just me or am i going blind

trying to put all these memories behind

year by year day by day now matter what the pain

it still won't go away

people say I'm strong but i know I'm not

my heart has gone somewhere so it can just rot

it's tired of waiting for someone to understand what I'm going through

but i don't tell anybody really so no one never knew

even though your dead your still part of my past

dad just know that my love for you will forever last