Sweet Poison (535)

The silence, it strains between us
Making me always wonder
Why do we dream things
That will never be real?

Why do we wish things
That we know will never come true?
Why do I dream of you loving me?
All these dreams make no sense
Maybe I love you? Maybe I don't?
Maybe I'll say something? Maybe I won't?

The silence, it strains between us
And I am bleeding pain and anguish and loneliness
This love has become a burden -
Well, not this love, these feelings,

I'm one step to the edge,
I'm not really intending to fall
But with this burden on my back...
Well, that says it all.

And when I fall to my knees
I try to stop falling from the deadly ledge
But I fall and try to catch my breath
For I am falling not flying
And trying to fight for what is mine
But I don't know what is mine
For I'm falling apart, breaking to pieces
And as I fall, this heart grows so cold
And freezes me through the very bone
And I'm held captive within a world of make believe
And thick black curtains of smoke.

The silence, it strains between us
Consuming my oh so empty soul but
Keeping me on constant alert for help
And strands of ivy fall around my neck
Slowly strangling me, I'm reliving my worst moments
There is no end to this torture,
No standstill in time, yet that is what I wish for
But wishes don't come true, no matter how hard you try
And you always end up broken, bruised, battered,
Wishing for life to end, but, of course, life goes on
And it hurts because I've fallen so many times
And now I've fallen for you, and the pain,
It is so unbearable, for I've fallen to my knees
Trying to right my wrongs and committed sins
But Karma has come back to slap me in the face
And to make me bleed and to hurt
And still your life continues, and the rain
It freezes me within an ice block and I'm taken back in time
And I'm so alone and scared, as I was before
Because I've started again, within a world as old as time
And the songs on the wind, they make me listen,
I listen to these beautiful sounds
And then they turn to wails and screeches,
And it hurts my ears to listen
And it hurts my heart to hope,
The darkness of your soul is holding me so tight
I'm so scared now, I don't want to die
And I'm heading toward the light,

The silence, it strains between us
And there is a secret that you know
Is it that I love you with the twisted strands of my heart?
And it's within your arms that is my safety,
Where I can only be seen, not touched?
But you don't love me, so I'm left unprotected,
There is no one here for me, and I have bled out my lifes' blood,
There is no one here for me except the sweet poison..

Let it be the death of me, not you, my dear.

~Daimon: my dear~

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