Split Path

I feel like I walk a split path,
Unsure of which way I should side,
I can't turn away from either,
Which path is even right?

Is it wrong to want what I want,
And take the selfish route,
Or to keep someone always so close,
My head is filled with doubt.

This person really needs me,
I cannot let her down,
She can't take care of herself,
This really makes me frown.

Althought she is older,
Her life exeeding by five years,
She can't tell she has a bad boyfriend,
This brings me to tears.

This is just one path,
That keeps me in deep thought,
The other is so selfish,
"Is that wrong?" I ask to God.

This second path of choice,
Makes me want to break free,
And live a life on my own,
One that I can lead.

I'd like to go away one day,
To live my own life,
And call every so often,
Sounds so easy right?

This person can't even,
Hold a good job for very long,
She can't handle her on money,
Ignoring this problem seems so wrong.

These two paths rip me inside,
My parents are always talking on,
"You will have to care for her,
One day when we're gone."

It's not that I don't love my sister,
I just wish there was a way,
I could live a life on my own,
And not need to worry every single day.

She doesn't have anyone else,
To help her just get through,
She's my only sister,
Should I help her, would you?

Just barely and struggling,
Is how she'd live without me,
But choosing this other path,
What kind of sister would I be?

I'm just fifteen years old,
A sophmore in high school,
A choice to make in two years,
Which path will over rule?

I know you must think I'm selfish,
That I just want to steal the ball,
But ask yourself just once,
At one point in time don't we all?