My Suicidal Addiction

I'm sick of this dreadful feeling.
I'm tired of losing love.
I hate to say it but...
I will no longer allow myself to be loved.
I run for the bathroom
I grab a knife along the way
Running water in the tub
I take my clothes off and begin
Letting the water overflow
I lift the knife onto my skin
Sliding it hard and gentle
Until finally I hit a vein.
Dropping the knife in the water I lower
My head till it goes underwater
letting myself bleed out.
Finally I no longer gasp for air.
I bled out to much.
I'm dead and covered in blood
Hoping the only one who will find me
Will be my love.
I hope he knows what he did to me
I hope he'll think next time he decides to cheat.