Pushing you away

I love you, I made bad choices when it came to choosing, I'm sorry, I no u no wat I said & its not wat it seems lik,
Idk wat to do, I try to talk 2 too you but you ignore everything,
Jus rember wen u said I love you & wen u said I made u feel special,
Ur not getin in da way of nutin, I made it seem lik it, tha guy who cheer me up wen i had a frown,
tha one who show me he cared; I'm sorry,
I no I messed up BIG time,
I lost you, every weekend we wud talk & our conversation wud never END, we had our time to converse and time for us too share,
I look at time now its lik this is the time we wud both share sumtin;
behind a smile there's a tear for you; & u said I'm ALWAYS goin too bee here for yoo,
den again I ask u for advice & u say I dnt wana get in da way,
I still care, i care foe this friendship,
i care because i need u day tru day, i hope I cud hav rearanged tha words I said,
wen u had to chuz u thought of meh,
we met one month & da next few weeks we had fallen for each oter,
we made promises to each rember, which r now broken, forgivee meh. I apologize,
I need you best friend,
At times its you & me standin ther alone at midnight,
U jus sign off & don't recognize I'm there <3