Lexapro

You get in my system but it takes a few weeks to kick in. I don't see a difference in me at all so I'll ask my friends.

They say I'm a little happier than I used to be. Its a little more fun to hang out with me.

But really they don't know about this Lexapro. It makes me act strange since a long time ago!

I have suicidal thoughts occurring more and more often, my eyes get dialated and I cant concentrate. Lack of sleep every night. Death involving dreams never out of sight.

Deep in thought of blades and water, razors penetrating through my skin. cutting in front of a car making this the end.

Another chance during my precious Ag class. I planned on that one being my last. Putting hot metal burning my body. Getting the torch and slowing making a cut.
My hand was all I burnt and that was too much.

I thought this was to help me proceed and go on to be positive. It has the opposite effect. All I am is an emotional wreck!!

I sit in my room all depressed and cry myself to sleep, my heart pounding through my chest.

Theres not a single thing going right, right now.
I just wanna be alone and write my feelings down.

Weeks have past and nothing is better. I go back to the doctor and he gets me off. I'm starting all over on this new death trip, Zoloff.