Overwhelmed and losing grip

Just like him... its all come crashing down...
feel overwhelmed and lost....
its like there's no air anymore.

Don't want to cry anymore
but because i can't get through him right now
its all getting worse

don't want to cut anymore
but the collection has grown...
right now i can't prevent these mini disasters

He's all i need right now
and again not here
the weight is growing
and I'm collapsing

Gotta make myself last
gotta carry on
just gotta not collapse this time
try to be stronger and stop this nightmare before its too late